After seeing friends in Vegas, having my mom and brother visit, and being on the road for most of this month, I’ve been kind of home sick lately.
I miss everyone back home terribly.
I know I’ve met a lot of interesting and good people here in Madison, but it doesn’t quite make up for it.
Sometimes I feel like I’m slowly losing part of my web. I hate that I miss birthdays, reunions, random get-togethers. It sucks to be so far away.
I love it whenever I get the chance for a phone call or video chat with friends or family back home. Those moments tend to be the highlight of my day.
But they just usually make me miss it all the more. They remind me of who and what I miss most.
Supported a go-live in Wilmington, North Carolina the last three days.
- When I started up my rental car, I was greeted with the radio blaring Christian rock, “God is my friend.” Thanks for the welcome, North Carolina
- Super humid all day everyday. Went for a run and felt like I was overheating.
- Fantastic seafood at Dock Street Oyster Bar. Cute waitress didn’t hurt.
- Love that southern charm and hospitality
- Dinner overlooking Cape Fear River
What was supposed to be about a 3 hour drive from Madison to Hammond turned into a 4 hour one due to traffic. Good thing I had a song and dance party for one.
- My first time in an emergency department and it was a doozy. You’ve got to have a certain frame of mind to work in a place with such variability.
- Small town America
- Lots of trees and shrubbery
- Saw the sunrise on the drive to the hospital. Considering that it’s summer, you can imagine how early this was.
- Working weekends throws me for a whack
This article by Marina Keegan has been making the rounds in social media and the news over the past few weeks.
I’ve read it multiple times, and each time, I can’t get past the fact that what she eludes to is how I felt after college and for the most part, still feel. It’s a poignant piece and puts into words what many college graduates experience I’m sure. The back story makes it even more powerful.
An excerpt:
We don’t have a word for the opposite of loneliness, but if we did, I could say that’s what I want in life. What I’m grateful and thankful to have found at Yale, and what I’m scared of losing when we wake up tomorrow and leave this place.
It’s not quite love and it’s not quite community; it’s just this feeling that there are people, an abundance of people, who are in this together. Who are on your team. When the check is paid and you stay at the table. When it’s four a.m. and no one goes to bed. That night with the guitar. That night we can’t remember. That time we did, we went, we saw, we laughed, we felt. The hats.
…
This scares me. More than finding the right job or city or spouse – I’m scared of losing this web we’re in. This elusive, indefinable, opposite of loneliness. This feeling I feel right now.
Even over a year after one of the most important days of my life, graduation day, I’m still scared. Scared that I’ll lose the web. Family, friends, acquaintances, strangers, people. That’s what I live for. Losing that would crush me.
But things have a way of working themselves out.
“We’re in this together. Let’s make something happen to this world.”